I'm working again now, yes I went through another bout with unemployment. I spent two months not doing much, and now I feel like I'm going to break.
It's not hard to notice that from my previous blog, or most to those who know me personally, change can really throw me for a loop and I am having a really difficult time coping. Relationships are hard, working full time and going to school is hard, making pennies above minimum wage is hard. This is whiny and stupid but I feel like the camel can only hold a few more straws before the back breaks
Suddenly having no time has me grasping at what my emotional needs might need, I don't know what I need from my partner to help me get through the changes going on in our life. I don't know what to do help myself get through it.
I've been sad, angry and frustrated for no reason after work. Emotionally exhausted, feeling polarizing feelings.
Last weekend I was far too emotional. I found myself feeling much more deeply, and it wasn't pleasant. Those emotions were all over the place from tenderness, hate, love, sadness within seconds. Now I'm tired. Sleep won't help. If I still believed that there is even the possibility of a god prayer might help but I know that turning to the imaginary man in the sky is futile. I need to find the strength within myself to make it through the next few months. Working 70 hours a week in the early summer last year was horrible, but work, and school, being only about 60 hours a week is harder than I ever imagined.
I wish I knew what to do.
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For starters, you should go with me to an Asian fusion restaurant I've heard is tasty. Take care of yourself, and let your man take care of you, too. You're fortunate to have that.
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